I think it’s due time that I’m writing this post. Even though it might not seem like it, the past year has been a roller coaster ride for me, and it is only now that I’m getting down to putting things in words. Sometimes I find it really amazing how in just 1 year, so much can happen. My life was in such a huge mess and I have no one to blame except myself for all the choices I made.
And finally, I decided to do something about it. To start of, I decided to break off my relationship of 7 years a few months back. It wasn’t an easy decision, but it was something that was for the better. It really took a lot of courage to let go, to accept that it was needed. It was nobody’s fault, maybe we just grew apart or maybe we were just not suitable for each other from the start.
Somehow, everything else seemed to fall in place after that. It’s as if when you finally find the courage to fix something, everything else becomes easier. Looking back, I’ve never regretted anything I chose to do. Every mistake is an experience and I always believe that as long as you managed to learn something good out of it, it’s okay. It also serves as a reminder never to commit the same mistake twice.
At this present moment, my heart has never felt lighter and happier, and I’m glad that my life seems to be back on the right track. This reminds me of something Steve Jobs said in a commencement speech about connecting the dots. I guess things happen for a reason and you might not know why at that present moment.. But you just have to keep faith and trust that one day the dots will somehow connect in the future and the reason for every thing that happened will be clear.
Closure. T has been a part of my blog ever since I started it. And as one chapter of my life ends, another begins. I don’t know what the future holds – definitely scary – but I know that everything will be okay eventually.
This post also serves as a reminder to myself.. I’ll always be reminded of my mistakes, reminded of how I took so many wrong turns before finding my way out, and most importantly, reminded of how I should live my life from now onwards.